The Rape of Vulnerability (Vaccine issues)

[Sara Klein Ridgley, Ph.D.]

This is too important not to share with everyone:

Dear IMVA,

Below you will find one of the strongest and most difficult essays I have
ever written. You will find several of the opening paragraphs repeating
some of the information from last weeks essay on vulnerability but this one
goes deeper into the subject. This essay is not for everyone to read, not
for the faint hearted because this is a story about the rape of infants
vulnerability. It is one of the darkest stories every told and for many
thousands upon thousands of parents represents one of the saddest stories
every told. If you choose to read this and it touches upon the heart and
the flood of tears, which waits for those of us who have hearts that have a
deep capacity to feel, my advice is in the middle of the flood to give
thanks that we even have a heart to feel. Life is often incredibly painful
and challenges our soul on levels that often seem too much to bare. My
experience is that each time I swim through the flood of tears my heart
becomes stronger and more open and this has led me to where I am today as a
being. This material first appeared in my e- book Cry of the Heart almost
two years ago.

In a few days I will be publishing a major document on the diminishing
nutritional values and the high toxicity of most foods today (part 1) and
then in the second part I will present a major discovery, one which I
suspected but now have scientific proof for, a new way to raise glutathione
levels. Actually its not a new way at all it's almost as old as the planet
itself. It is just new to most people in the chelation field.

Mark Sircus Ac., OMD Director International Medical Veritas Association

http://www.imva.info http://www.worldpsychology.net +55-83-252-2195
www.skype.com ID: marksircus
The Rape of Vulnerability
(The darkest story ever told) The International Medical Veritas Association
Mark Sircus Ac., OMD
Vulnerability is the capacity or susceptibility to being hurt. From the
perspective of the heart, from the center of our vulnerable being nature,
life on earth holds a great potential for the deep hurting of our beings.
Inside the heart lies a great capacity for hurt, a sensibility of being
that is complete in its ability to feel the uncaring, hurtful and abusive
nature of others in ways that lead to a great deal of suffering. Most of us
have been hurt one way or another, but some much more than others. In
general we are hurt through the general lack of love that gets expressed as
a lack of understanding and deep listening on the part of our parents,
teachers, friends and others who just do not have the willingness or
capacity to care enough.
For most people the feeling of being exposed to emotional hurt, or exposed
to being taken advantage/abused relates to feelings of vulnerability that
are to be avoided at all cost. Most people associate vulnerability with the
feeling of being fragile, weak, or of being susceptible to emotional pain
and suffering. When we are being taken advantage of either in business or
in intimate relationships, we tend to feel highly uncomfortable and
insecure. When such situations are prolonged we get sick with the
helplessness and easily end up feeling trapped or imprisoned. No one likes
one bit when their feelings and rights are being ignored and run over
especially when we feel too weak to do anything about it.

Normally our vulnerability relates to our innermost feelings and fears with
the possibility that others might use our feelings and fears against us if
they knew of them. So we hide them to protect ourselves not knowing the
cost of repression and separation. Surrounding these issues are the basic
feelings of insecurity, our lack of self-confidence, lack of trust in
others and the basic fear of the unknown, of uncertainty and uncharted
waters. So people who fear being hurt, who fear their own vulnerability and
the feelings engendered by it, tend to not let others know how they feel,
they tend to think thoughts like, „I am never going to let my guard down,
never let them know how I really feel. I have been hurt in the past so I
will never let anyone hurt me again.‰ This all leads to attitudes that do
not trust anyone, pretending we have no problems or weaknesses when we do,
and walking around with the attitude that it‚s nobody‚s business how we
feel and that nothing and nobody can help us overcome the pain we feel.

The word vulnerable is also synonymous with the words openness and
exposure. Being open is a fundamental key to a life of fulfillment and
success, to happiness and love. By their openness, people tend to exercise
their courage and become freer from fear. Being vulnerable in this sense is
synonymous with being open to communicate, being open to share and care,
which all opens us up to the possibility of growing as a person in
emotional and spiritual ways. When we are vulnerable in a positive way we
try out new behaviors, attitudes and or beliefs in the pursuit of
fulfillment and personal growth, we become willing to take chances and try
out new experiences, accept challenges or take risks in trying out
activities where the outcome is unsure.

The most important key to finding the love of the heart is found in our
willingness and ability to be vulnerable.
The most interesting paradox of human life happens to center on issues
surrounding our vulnerability. On one side we have this fear of being hurt
that closes us down in a multitude of ways. On the other side our openness
leads to a dynamic life of courage, faith and trust in others and
ourselves. When a person is truly vulnerable there is an unobstructed
entrance or view to the persons heart, being and soul. In the strongest or
most enlightened person there is no protecting or concealing cover because
the person needs none. Such people carry themselves in full view of others
because they are not afraid of being hurt, because they are not afraid to
suffer.
In the middle, between fear and hurt on one side and love and courage on
the other lies a mystery, something little understood by modern man. We
have words in language to describe something that we no longer know with
any degree of intimacy. In the center is our being, something we come to
this earth with, something that takes full form at our birth. In both
modern and ancient languages we have this entity that exists inside of us,
some internal fire and passion for life and love called the heart.
The Heart is the Vulnerability of being. This says it all when it comes to
the heart. It is easy to hurt most beings because the heart is vulnerable.
And our bodies are just as vulnerable. In the beginning we just are, a
being with the capacity to feel perfectly vulnerable, deeply sensitive to
all that is immediately around us. As babies when we are born we need a
tender touch, looking to unite in bliss with the beings that have brought
us into the world. It is in this that the heart is completely visible,
though vulnerable, needing unbreakable bonds of love and trust.

Deep within is our pure being that has incarnated into this body. This being
is ultra sensitive. From the moment of conception this pure being is picking
up subtle impressions from the environment through the heart center of pure
feeling.
Scientific evidence does show that even very young children are capable of
experiencing deep anguish and grief in response to trauma, loss, and
personal rejection. Dr. Kyle Pruett, clinical professor of psychiatry at
the Yale University Child Study Center, says „infants are highly attuned to
mood even when in the womb making them susceptible to things like parental
depression.‰ The reality is that a 4-month-old can be clinically depressed
for if they do not get the love and care they deserve and need they begin
to withdraw. Our pure beings need and deserve pure love and when we do not
get it we become disturbed in our being, in the heart center that feels.

The ground state of our self is just a being that feels.
Hurt is something our beings naturally feel. Hurt is the appropriate
response of the human heart when attacked or misunderstood as adults and it
is the natural response of babies when they are treated with lack of
consideration, kindness and love. When we betray the innocent and
vulnerable nature of the pure heart we cause hurt. When we are born we have
a great capacity to be hurt. Babies and young children are totally at the
mercy of their environment, they are vulnerable. When we come to earth as
vulnerable baby beings we hit the stratosphere of uncaring and are forced
to accept many things, including the all to often deliberate abuse of our
being. Besides any problems and conflicts our parents might be having we
have the medical community waiting, making our birth a problem; ripping the
experience away from its natural and most beautiful state. And then we have
had the pharmaceutical companies doing their best to drag us away from the
breast and the nipple and mothers warmth and natural immune strengthening
milk. Yet there is something worse, a terror waiting for us, and aggression
and invasion that is inflicted against our totally defenseless being.

„I wanted to let you know that I almost killed my own daughter by allowing
her pediatrician to give her shots. At birth, my baby could already hold her
head up and look around. She displayed numerous signs of being a gifted
child. She scored a 10 on the APGAR test. When she was two months old, we
took her to her monthly well checkup. What happened when we took her for
her check up when she was two months old I will never forget, and I will
tell everyone I know for the rest of my life to inform them of the dangers
of these immunizations.‰
On the day of our birth doctors and nurses, with the willing acceptance and
surrender of our parents, plunge cold steel into our flesh and inject a
foreign fluid laced with poison and other modified genetic materials that
assaults our immune and other critical systems of our bodies. Babies cry
when their basic needs are frustrated, they cry when they are in need and
when they are hurt. But babies start to scream when we pass a certain
limit, they scream without end when they are violated and hurt in a way
that is often beyond their capacity to recover from.

It is easy to hurt most beings because the heart is vulnerable. And our
bodies are just as vulnerable.
By the time a baby is born their ultra sensitivity keeps them alert to the
total environment surrounding their birth. They can feel, and their beings
remember in terms of conditioned fear and trust all the attitudes that
surround them. It does make a difference to them how they are treated, how
they are welcomed into this world. It matters when the doctor becomes
impatient and cuts open the mother‚s belly, thinking more about money and
time than the natural rhythm of mother and infant. It matters on a being
level when cold steel penetrates our tender young body injecting something
alien that we are totally defenseless to. It matters the arrogance of the
minds of others who violate us in the name of false assumptions, judgments
and rationalizations about what is and what is not best for our young
lives and what they think is best for society. It is the mind that is not
sensitive any more to its own vulnerability that can do such things, that
can sacrifice without remorse our purity and vulnerability to something
else.

When we are born we have a great capacity to be hurt.
There are many things doctors and nurses have traditionally done to rip us
away from the pure vulnerability of the moment of our birth, they have hung
us upside down and spanked us, taken us away from our mothers before we
could bind with them, and shined bright lights in our faces. Making it cold
and clinical in operating rooms as opposed to warm and natural in settings
that facilitate feelings of safety and security; but what waits is a
quantum level more disturbing to our vulnerability. Today it is standard
procedure in the first hours or day of our life to penetrate our bodies
with a hypodermic needle which manifests on many levels the first basic
experiences of uncaring, helplessness and fear. At the moment of our birth
we are confronted with something that holds a threat to our life, with a
potential for an early death (for some) for we are injected with nerve
toxins that can quickly accumulate and lead to severe neurological damage.
Certainly it is a stress and a hurt that makes us scream to the high
heavens but the doctors and nurses smile it off as being normal. Their base
line of normality is thrust on our vulnerabilities and often sets the stage
for much disruption of health in our very young lives. Babies and young
children are totally at the mercy of their environment, they are totally
vulnerable, but slowly loose this after years of being repeatedly hurt and
misunderstood. We slowly loose the vulnerability of being as we erect our
ego or mental separate self. When Christ said that we needed to be born
again he was referring to the reversing of this process. He was talking
about re-contacting this hidden vulnerability, the innocence and natural
trust of our beings.
When we betray the innocent and vulnerable nature of the pure heart we cause
hurt. The separate mind is the betrayer of the universe of heart and true
being.
Because of the hurt we feel deep down, and our own separation from Œthat
which is hurt,‚ (separation from our own being nature) we tend to manifest
our uncaring and insensitivity in many ways that hurts others. Few
understand this process and are sensitive to it and for sure the medical
professionals and pharmaceutical people are not among the most considerate,
warm and caring energies we encounter in life. One of the reasons money and
power is such a difficult trip, and why Christ said it was easier for a
camel to thread the eye of a needle than a rich man get to heaven is
because if we put money and power first in our consciousness vulnerability
gets lost, trampled on, and raped. What we put first in life is incredibly
important on this level, it tells a huge story about our lives and actions.

To treasure vulnerable love is the first law of a pure heart. Christopher
Hills
This is the key that tells all the difference in young beings lives. When
their vulnerability is cherished and protected the needs of our pure beings
are met and we develop along natural and healthy lines. The injection of
vaccines with their accompanying nerve toxins used as preservatives is the
first full-blown invasion and rape of our infant vulnerability. The fear
many people have of being exposed to being hurt, taken advantage of or
abused, can perhaps be traced to this first in a series of violent
intrusions into our inner physical and emotional domain. Though there are
many biological and chemical explanations of what vaccine formulas can do
to us on physical levels the fears themselves can retard normal
development; can lead to developmental problems of all sorts. Shyness,
timidity and fear taken to an extreme for instance will create learning
disabilities. This can be traced Œimpart‚ back to this wholesale violation
of vulnerability at our birth and during the first few months of life when
we are repeatedly attacked with needles that inject liquid poisons into our
bodies. When we are led innocently to suffer the Œnormal‚ side effects of
vaccines, stresses and pain over something we have no control over we
scream our unhappiness, we scream the hurt and we scream the suffering and
in this hardly a soul thinks anything is wrong except the parents whose
hearts are thrown into a hurt fire of anguish that no one should have to
face.

The age of starting routine immunization appears to be a critical
determinant of the severity and frequency of reactions.

Both western medicine and modern psychology have not been able to come up
with solid concepts that explain why some people recover from illness and
others do not. There does seem to be a force in most everyone that operates
routinely to protect and promote health, whose absence seems to leave us
vulnerable. This explains, on some level, why one individual might suffer a
relatively mild attack of a disease like ulcerative colitis, another gets
chronically crippled by the same disease, and a third might decline rapidly
from the first attack and go on to die from the same thing another recovers
quickly from. Many physicians and therapists have noticed that certain
people have a strong will to get better. There are some individuals who can
become extremely sick, and because of an exceptionally Œstrong will to
grow,‚ they heal. And there are people who suffer from mild illnesses, who
lack this will, and despite the best of treatment and care, languish inside
of their illness. They will not show significant improvements, or if they
do, will end up bouncing from one illness to another. It‚s unbelievable
that people would inject a chemical cocktail directly into our bloodstream,
ready to disrupt our immune system, ready to subject our young body to a
host of toxic chemicals and viruses. We naturally scream against such an
invasion, we react, and sometimes we die. These differences are apparent in
babies and their reactions to vaccination. Some babies are naturally
stronger and can take the abuse with greater ease. Whether that has
something to do with their bodies ability to detoxify or an overall
strength is unknown but there is little to explain why one child will
develop the slight redness of skin that doctors and nurses and medical
organizations like to hold up as the only truly Œnormal‚ effect to
vaccination, and why others will react with high fevers and seizures that
can end in death. There are so many factors that lead to our feelings of
security and trust of life and many things that lead us to feeling timid
and afraid. What is clear is that doctors and nurses are no longer tuned to
the subtle vulnerabilities or even if it‚s a good idea to inject nerve
toxins used as preservatives in the blood streams and muscle tissue of
newborn infants. They are so out of touch with the true realities of young
babies lives, they must be to do what they are doing without compunction.
Perhaps we know instinctively that some dark sinister force is attacking our
purity of being.

Perhaps we feel with our tiny little spirits the force of deliberate
ignorance and the bestiality of greed attacking our bloodstreams. Perhaps
somehow we can sense that these people are much more interested in their
ideas and livelihoods and their cherished ways of life than our
vulnerability and need for pure love. Perhaps we just know through our
feelings that it is all wrong, and we kick and scream, and then even our
parents betray us by themselves taking us to the alter of medical
deception. When our parents betray us something gets lost deep inside, we
lose a certain trust that often can never be mended. When it comes to
ripping our veins open to foreign invasion, when our pureness of being, and
the natural strength of our bodies and immune systems are not being
respected, the loss on the innermost subtle levels is hidden, lost behind a
cloud of medically recognized symptoms like allergies and asthma all of
which have emotional aspects behind them. Parents themselves are of course
betrayed by their doctors and by governmental agencies who are just
promoting the agenda of large pharmaceutical companies that have their
profits mostly in mind.

It is the uncaring that hurts our beings, the lack of heart, and the steel
coldness of the mind that is always seeking power, dominance and control
over others lives.

It is very difficult for many adults to understand the pure vulnerability
that a baby comes into the world with for many have lost their connection
with their own vulnerability. Babies are much more sensitive than we can
imagine and react to the most subtle influences. Mercury, aluminum,
formaldehyde, and quite a few other toxic substances are found to varying
degrees in all vaccines. These substances aggressively interact with the
physical and potentially the emotional level. There are certain things
that can never be measured, cannot be studied by medical science. We come
to this world looking for pure love, needing pure love, needing pure touch
and an ultra sensitivity to our beings. When we get injected with poisons
and are mishandled at our birth we get something that betrays our
vulnerability and deep needs for love and trust.

The general nature of Œevil‚ is to not have consciousness of the effect that
our actions have on the worlds of others. Elie Wiesel understood evil, he
lived through the Holocaust, and wrote about the men who managed the death
camps. „Yes, it is possible to defile life and creation and feel no
remorse. There was, then, a technique, a science of murder, complete with
specialized laboratories, business meetings and progress charts. Those
engaged in its practice did not belong to a gutter society of misfits, nor
could they be dismissed as just a collection of rabble. Many held degrees
in philosophy, sociology, biology, general medicine, psychiatry and the
fine arts. There were lawyers among them. And - unthinkable but true -
theologians.‰ It is not such a stretch of the imagination for many
thousands of parents to assume the worst when it comes to the public health
officials and doctors that are responsible for vaccination policy.

It‚s hard to understand that it is almost impossible to approach these
kinds of people with logic and reason about things that are impossible for
them to understand. How can you make them understand that nothing does
greater harm to a human being (or infant) than feeling that your life is in
danger and there is nothing you can do about it. Scientists have discovered
that great changes in brain chemistry occur when there is a danger and
there is nothing we can do to escape it. The feeling of helplessness is a
terror from which the brain has a very hard time recovering from. Many
beings have confronted combat, torture, repeated child abuse, rape, and
violent assault; each of these provokes a common biological and
neurological effect when the stressful event is perceived as
uncontrollable, thus leaving us helpless. When we feel there is something
we can do we fare much better through traumatic experiences.

There is nothing a child or infant can do but kick and scream as we drag
them into the doctor‚s office. It‚s funny that we so easily dismiss their
cries, and it‚s sick that doctors and nurses dismiss their piercing screams
and high fevers so easily afterwards. This story about the rape of infants
vulnerability represents one of the darkest stories every told. For many
thousands upon thousands of people it represents one of the saddest stories
every told. Beyond our imagination it goes, beyond our capacity to feel
empathy and remorse. No heart could bear to feel the collective agony of
parents around the world whose babies are damaged or killed through this
form of medical and scientific abuse of beings. No heart could bear to go
totally into the inner world of all these infant baby beings and identify
with their feelings without a total meltdown lined with tears. And no heart
can really understand how humanity could have slipped so low and into such
a darkness that would do such things to incredibly beautiful and vulnerable
beings that come so trustingly into our care.

How can one not cry about such things, how can one not care? How can this
have gone on for so long without the cry of the heart being heard? How have
we been so duped that we have sleepwalked through such ignorance and
insensitivity. These are questions for all of us to answer not just the
doctors and nurses. Hardly a one of us has paid sufficient attention but
now is our chance to make up for it all. Now is our chance to raise up
among humanity a ground swell cry and scream that will finally be heard
around the world. Now is our chance to prove that we are humans and deserve
our place in a humane universe.

The babies are still being lined up, they are still screaming and crying.
Can we hear them? All over the globe they are crying and sometimes dying.
Can we hear them? Can we feel them? Whose heart can bear to? But we have
to; we simply have to reconnect with their vulnerability that is being
raped every day. Yes there is no way other than through swimming through a
river of tears and through hearts almost broken but we will not break.
Instead we have to channel all these feelings into a power translated into
action that will lead to humanity coming to its senses. To the sense that
we will have the wisdom to stop hurting the children.

One families story about the devastating effects of the Hep B vaccine. Beth
Topp the mother of Robert:
„I could not imagine a more difficult task than describing how my son was
before the shot. With every word I feel that bright, curious, considerate,
beautiful little boy getting farther away. My son is still here, but he‚s
not the same. He changed literally overnight. He had a thorough physical
exam and our doctor said he was in great shape. A few minutes later the
nurse gave him his first "mandatory " Hepatitis B vaccine. The following
morning he was different. Different looking, different acting. I keep
explaining this difference to all the doctors.

I realize that it is hard to get past the fact that he is paralyzed on one
side, but that for us is only the tip of the iceberg. There is something
else going on here. There is something really wrong with him. Mentally,
physically, and personality wise he is a different kid.

I can‚t expect a doctor who has never met him to realize what a dramatic
transformation this is because they have nothing to compare him to. I am
hoping that my memories will be enough to help them understand how much of
my child is missing. I hope I can make them understand how special he is
and help them find some way to bring my little boy back to me. I‚m not
asking for a miracle, but just to understand what is happening to him, so
maybe I can help fix it. I am so desperate, I will try anything. If he was
dead I could mourn him and if he was missing I could look for him and if
he had cancer I find the best doctors for treatment and comfort him. But he
has turned into someone else and I don‚t know what I am supposed to do. I
don‚t know how I am supposed to do it.

It is important to know that I wanted my children. I cherish them. I have
always believed I was put on this earth to raise my children well, provide
them with a good foundation enabling them to achieve great things. No
sacrifice is too much. I want them to be good people and I believe that
each one of them is destined to do something great with their lives.

Since the day he was born, a perfect little angel with a halo of beautiful
white blonde hair and wise blue eyes. He was content. He didn‚t have colic
or get fussy. He never showed any sign of a temper and was patient to a
fault. He was always so happy and agreeable. He was a natural athlete,
nice, trying to please and very bright. You really would have to know
Robert to understand how radical a change there was after the shot. He‚s
not the same anymore in anyway. He‚s really ticklish now. And has no
tolerance for pain. If you step on his toe he screams and falls down crying
in agony. Then he jumps up and wants to attack whoever hurt him. He is mean
to little kids. He argues and fights and demands that everything be fair.
He gets lost. He looks lost. He can‚t do basic subtraction. He can‚t
remember anything. He forgets what we did yesterday and doesn‚t have the
ability to think back and remember the last time he went to the bathroom.
He is cold even when it is 90 degrees. He gets exhausted walking and gets
nosebleeds a lot. His face doesn‚t move on the left side. He can‚t even
close his eye or blink. His face sometimes looks twisted tight and severe.
Other times it looks like it is sliding off his head. His mouth doesn‚t
work so he drools, has trouble swallowing., slurs words. and when he drinks
it runs right down his chin. The only thing he likes to eat is yogurt and
does this weird thing with the right side of his tongue licking the spoon.
He eats by putting his face down by the plate”.
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