Looking for advice. Sorry for the long post.

[Xenia Mikhailov]

Dear list members,
I'm relatevly new to homeopathy and I can't afford a professional
consultation, that's why I really need your advice. Thank you in advance.

I'm 33 years old, female, 160 cm height, 55 kg weight, very slim upper
body, slightly overweight lower body, blond, slowly moving. My face is
very pale now. I had lots of different deseases in my childhood (used to
be always ill), then I had hypothyroid (dissapeared after Calc Carb 30).
I have a very weak digestion and pain in my joints. I used to be very
weak and tired for many years, sleeping a lot, catching cold very often
and so on. Actually I never felt healthy during all my life.
I'm introvert, living in my internal world, I like privacy, I hate
noise. I love my friends but I don't like any superficial socializing.
I'm very interested in spiritual issues, comparative religions, jungian
psychology and many other things. Was fisically abused in the childhood
- my father used to beat me a lot.
My father died when he was 49. Brain cancer. He also had some liver
disorder when he was young. He was homosexual. My mother had epileptic
sizures for many years, now she doesn't have. Her seizures started when
she was pregnant with me. She used to work with chemicals before it and
doctor said her sizures were connected with some liver disorder due to
poisoning. She never used contraception and was pregnant just twice -
first was me (almost had miscarriage), second time she had miscarriage.
I'm divorced. I can't manage with any partner more than few months and I
think that it's completely my fault. I was pregnant once (I was 24
y.o.), made an abortion and now I regret it. I really want to have
children. Conventional medicine can't find any reason for my infertility.
This is a background. Now the actual story.

Last July I started relationship with a guy who was absolutely not for
me. We separated in February. It was too traumatic for me and I felt
that there is something strange about it. I started to think about this
months of telephone/internet relashionship (he lives in another country)
and understood that more than 7 months I ate approximately 8 grams salt
per day, drunk 2 beers every evening to fall asleep, that I hate red
wine last months, do not eat vegetables... I completely changed. I used
to be tired all the time and now I became restless, with restless
trembling hands, muscle jerks, very rapid pulse (100-120) after lunch
and before sleep, hysterical, weeping without any reason...I wanted
fresh air all the time and felt chilly. I had red and itchy eruption on
my right cheek, near the nose and another one on the right side of chin,
below the first one. I couldn't afford professional consultation and
felt very desperate. First of March I decided to take Natrum Muriaticum
200C. The situation was so bad that I wouldn't lose anything anyway.

But I felt much better that very day. First of all I stopped weeping all
the time. Craving for beer disappeared immediately. Actually I don't
drink alkohol at all now. Most impressing was that desire for coffee
dissapeared as well - and I was really addicted to 4-6 cups of very
strong coffee every day. At least decaf - but very bitter. It was a must
for me. I had no coffee for more than six weeks and I don't want it at
all. I used to drink a lot of water (more than 4 litres per day) for
many years, now it dissapeared. Now I drink approx. 2-3l. I feel much
more relaxed but pulse is still very rapid after lunch. I started to
smoke a lot, much more than before. I had an attack of sciatica (4th to
8th days of treatment) that I never had in such form and intensity.
Sometimes I sleep well, but sometimes it's still difficult to fall
asleep, pulse is 120/min and it's difficult to breath. I need fresh air
but then I feel cold and wake up completely. After Nat Mur I go to
sleep earlier and wake up earlier, more refreshed. Now I really crave
chockolate and everything sweet (in frightening amounts), I eat at least
100 gr. chockolate every day, but it's milk chockolate. I started to
gain weight. I eat a lot but I don't engoy the taste of food. Digestion
was much better after Nat Mur, but now it's weak once again (colic after
any carbohydrates). My eruption is still here, it's better or worse all
the time. My period always was with clots, weakness, heavy flow. Last
years it also was irregular, 2-5 days earlier or later. After Nat Mur I
got my period in three weeks (7 days earlier), no heavy flow. The next
one was after 27 days. Now it's already seventh week after the remedy
and I notice that I'm becoming restless and want to weep once again...

I would like to do something - to fix the pulse problem (it disturbes
me a lot), to stop smoking (this is first time in my life that I want to
stop, but I just can't do it), to get more energy and to heal the
eruption on the face. I feel now that I really need a change in my life.
Could you, please, recommend me what I should do?

Thank you so much
Xenia
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[Rosemary Hyde]

Dear Xenia,

You gave a good case description. This is a very complex situation, going
back to your childhood, and the homeopathic treatment for it will be complex
and take a fairly long time -- a year or two of follow-ups after the initial
prescription, I would imagine -- for you to go through all the twists and
turns of it.

If you can't afford the homeopathic consultations and live anywhere near a
school of homeopathy, you might call the school and ask about their clinics.
Most schools offer clinic consultations, with groups of student homeopaths
supervised by an instructor, for lower cost than seeing a private
practitioner.

I wish you good success in finding skilled homeopathic treatment.

Rosemary

[vtyekkirala]

Hi,
Staph may be considered as it is the only remedy mentioned for
desire to break the habit of smoking but unable to do it. (Rajan)
It is all the more better indicated because of your childhood
(lot of anger suppressed) etc.,and if you are also masturbating
this should work like a miracle.
With best wishes,
V.T.Yekkirala.