rubric -- blood; also interesting puzzling case of borderline personality

[Rosemary Hyde]

I have a patient who said several times that she really enjoys bleeding (referring to menses). "I love my period. I have always loved bleeding. I love the wetness. I love red. I love blood, the color of it." (Strangely, she has scanty menses as well).

Does a rubric strike anyone here? It would seem an excellent one for the case, being a rather peculiar set of statements, but I can't seem to find anything that would correspond. Obviously, she feels extremely strongly about it.

Other strong aspects of case: she feels at home nowhere, not in her native country (where for some reason she doesn't even have a passport), not in the US, where she's illegal -- no papers, not even, she says, in her body. She is still grieving deeply for a broken relationship several years ago.She fell recently from a sleeping loft and got bruised, and the fall seems to have really interacted deeply with something in her past history -- probably early and repeated sexual abuse, which did occur. But she screamed and screamed, and it felt good, she said -- others in the building commented that it sounded as if she were "being raped."

She feels very unappreciated. She has migraines with menses and also if she eats late at night, and depression relieved by menses. She wants to live in the commune where she's living and feels unappreciated because it includes men as well as women (she's previously lived in all-female communes and has identified as a lesbian). But she's also having huge emotional problems dealing with the men and asserting herself comfortably: "It's related to the struggle with men. They overpowered me. They;'ve hurt me. They have the power... I let myself be choked." Obviously an association with being raped and abused as a youngster.

She has joint pains >>>, desires solitude,, loves to spend long periods alone hiking in natural settings, when she's sad light >. She also says about her childhood and her mother sending her off to live with her father, who was a libertine, "I needed a mother to feed me." Again very psoric.

The last statement makes me wonder about Lac-h. The homelessness makes me think of Merc. Ham has some aspects of the case. I wonder about snakes. But nothing's really coming together yet. I just thought that someone might have a suggestion re the "loves blood" rubric, or that the resonance might bring a remedy or two to people's minds....

Thanks!

Rosemary Hyde
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[Dave Hartley]

Hi Rosemary,

Everything about this "screams out" childhood abuse trauma un-dealt with.
If I were faced with such a case, and unable to choose a grand simillimum, I
would probably start focusing-in on the trauma etiology, and letting the
other aspects slide into the background - choose a remedy suitable to the
trauma she is obviously still suffering from - and accept even one or two
confirmatories out of all other observations.
Until this is dealt with, I doubt that treatment based on other aspects of
her personality / life experience will be successful.

Counselling obviously would be desireable, unless she is notably

[Rosemary Hyde]

Thanks, Isali. I'll check these out. They're not rubrics I'm familiar
with, so I may end up coming back and asking you what repertory they're
from, but they sound "right on."

Rosemary Hyde

[Rosemary Hyde]

Thanks, Dave.

I think your observations are very accurate and applicable, and I agree
wholeheartedly. I have not yet given her a remedy, as the intake interview
was late last week, and I was away over the weekend -- so I'm working on the
case analysis now. (I told her it would be this week before I was ready to
provide a remedy, and she's coming back tomorrow for it as well as for a
counseling session with my partner -- an MD therapist with whom I often
collaborate in treating patients, she psychologically and I homeopathically.
It's a very interesting and fruitful collaboration). The patient has not
been treated homeopathically in this country, although she's familiar with
homeopathy from her home country in Europe. So definitely she's not
experiencing a "direction of cure."

Thanks very much for sharing your perspective and for your remedy
suggestions. Rosemary

[Dale Moss]

Hi, Rosemary --
Just a thought, but have you looked at Cyclamen? Sankaran classifies this in the leprosy miasm, which would certainly address her sense of not belonging anywhere and being an outcast from a very early age. You might also examine other remedies in the MIND, sadness, menses ameliorates rubric.
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