AIDS PROVING

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The major themes in the AIDS nosode proving
Loss of protection/shell/wall. 'I felt that I had lost my wall and my shell, and there was a free flow of emotions both in and out. I was exposed, almost naked, with no control.' '... uninterrupted flow between self and group.' vs. '... does not belong.' '... felt excluded, lied to.'
Estrangement.
Feeling rejected; outcast.
Feeling betrayed.
Feeling contaminated and fear of contaminating others; always washing.
Responsibility for others. Responsibility for children.
Self loathing.
Left-sidedness.
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Dream Themes
(Bracketed numerals refer to number of provers who had these dream themes.)
Huge houses, vast rooms, small outside, huge within. (8)
Houses or things richly ornate, jewelled, gold, beautiful interiors, colours stunning and rich. (8)
Big, grand houses, ornate, ramshackle or both. (8)
Staircases and corridors. (6)
Wood, metal, water. (5. 3. 3.)
Colour: red. (5)
Violence. Panic. (6)
Responsibility. (4)
Anger - irritability. (3)
Fear. (6)
Teeth. (3)
Snow. (3)
Septic state. (2)
Children. (5)
Transport, travelling, buses, cars, trains, airports, bus station, train station. (6)
Lots of people - being busy - rushing about. (5)
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Sensations, Feelings and Images felt by provers immediately after taking the remedy (within the first 10 minutes).
Sensations.
Internal trembling - shaky feeling of whole body.
Sensation of growth, of blossoming.
Sensation of flying gently, of floating, of being uplifted.
Sensation of being like a cloud. Image of a white billowing cloud, with a flower in its centre. The flower had an orange, dull brown centre with inter-locking petals. I began to feel like the flower. The whole image was moving to the left.
Sensation as if I had a tightening rope around my neck and that I was being pulled upwards.
Sensation of being intoxicated, of being stoned - it felt like I was just going up on acid - like the beginning of a trip. Sensation of going into nowhere, into nothingness.
Sensation of popping - image of seed pod popping open - of a bubble popping -
Sensation of things coming out. Sensation of things undulating - as if the grass was undulating, like wind blowing on a field of corn.
Sensation of love and companionship for everyone. Sensation of plonking my feet in the ground, of being grounded.
Image of an elephant - feeling of gentleness and passivity from such an enormous structure.
Felt a very strong sensation in my brain, like a movement, like a vibration, inside the cerebellum, felt like waves undulating in the top of my brain. It felt like my brain was rearranging itself, that it was settling in a new position, felt as if it were moving against the skull, if it were a cat it would be nestling itself.
Sensation in region of breast bone - it felt like I'd been punched - felt like a door closed in front of me as if I've been closed out/shut out, as if I was being lied to. Feelings of panic and insecurity of separation and isolation.
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Exaltation. Elation. Exhilaration - frivolity.
All senses heightened.
'I feel above it all', 'I feel that I am floating', 'I feel disconnected', 'I felt I had to ground myself', 'the world seems an exciting and strange place.'
'Positive thoughts, confident, expansive', 'very sharp, feel my mind is more awake and more alert. I am getting on with more work. I feel that I have more time for everything.' 'Easy concentration.' 'I feel much more positive about myself, about my decisions, I don't need the approval of others.'
'Unhurried and untroubled.' 'I feel content and happy with the world - emotionally connected - much more settled.'
'Peacefulness - mildness.' 'A feeling of complete peace of mind.' 'A feeling of oneness with my fellow man and the whole of the universe.' 'I felt exceptionally close to my family and friends.' 'All I could think of was: youth, beauty, peace.' 'I felt vulnerable, that I needed someone to look after me.' 'I felt like a child, but it was a good feeling.'
'I am enjoying to be alone - usually I don't like to be alone, since the remedy glad to be alone.'
Normally feels easily rejected, now feels great. 'I was singing to myself in the street, loved being on my own.' 'I felt like doing something mischievous.' 'I wanted to do something naked and extravagant. I had no embarrassment with nakedness.'
Journeying back to childhood - childhood memories.
Over sensitive. Exceptionally sympathetic to the point of tears - weepy. 'Things are getting to me, usually couldn't give a damn - I am feeling very fragile.'
'Want to get away from everyone, when on my own want to be with everyone again.' 'Feel very withdrawn.'
Mind going completely blank. 'Lost all sense of identity - didn't know who I was, found this experience very frightening, I burst into tears.'
Feelings of Paranoia. 'Felt that a door was slammed shut in my chest' 'Felt like I was being lied to.' 'Felt every one was talking about me in an unkind way.'
Suspicious. Mistrustful.
'Felt that people were plotting against me.'
'Felt very exposed - I had no shell to protect me.'
'Exquisite and precious mental pain - I had no shell for protection.'
'I felt that I had lost my "wall", "my protection" and my "shell", and there was a free flow of emotions both in and out. I was exposed - almost naked, with no control.'
Not connecting with people, feelings of isolation, 'nobody loves me'
'I imagined everything I said was wrong - that I had offended someone - that I had committed some sort of faux pas - that I was gabbling.'
Inability to formulate thoughts and words properly.
Feelings of being awkward and shy - averse company and talking.
Lacking in self confidence.
Absence of sensitivity towards others.
Moods fluctuating/vacillating between morose and exhilaration.
Lethargy and confusion - feels that she has forgotten something, or to do something.
Journeying into the past, remembering childhood experiences.
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Other observations
One of the male provers, who worked in a laboratory, volunteered to have a 'live' blood analysis done every day for one week, starting the day before the proving. The results, as seen under a microscope, are shown below. Interesting to note that the distribution of the blood corpuscles changed dramatically two days after the proving. This formation is called 'stacking' which indicates a humoural defence reaction.
This picture lasted for three days, after which it returned to normal.
Observation by analyst: The following reaction was observed: Hypochromic anaemia with anisiocytosis and poikilocytosis.
The remedy appears to affect the production of the glutation-reductase enzyme in the erythrocytes (red corpuscles).
A shortage of this enzyme might cause:- Hypochromic anaemia (lack of colour) with anisiocytosis (irregular size) and poikilocytosis (distortions of the membrane of the red corpuscles).- Reticulocytosis- Enlargement of the spleen- Neurological malfunctions- Spasticity- Oligophrenia (Debilitas, Imbecillitas, Idiocy).
The M.R. Vaccine proving
In order to verify whether the above mentioned proving symptoms gave a clear picture of the essence of the nosode itself, rather than the personal characteristics of the patient whose blood was used, we arranged another proving at the School of Homoeopathy. This remedy was made up at Nelsons Homoeopathic Pharmacy from the blood of another terminal AIDS patient: Mr M.R.
The proving symptoms were so similar to the first proving that they will not be included in this book. Once again the most outstanding features were:
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Mind:
Immediate reaction of floating, happiness, playfulness.
Able to fit lots of work into a very short space of time.
Or the opposite: extreme heaviness and sluggishness.
Concern about children, needing protection.
Dreams of huge houses with many staircases and dark passages.
Dreams of threats of violence.
Loss of money, jewellery, possessions.
Loss of words, cannot express himself.
Angry with everybody and desire to kill.
Anger at injustice.
Anger about being 'subjected' to this proving.
Great fear of terminal illness.
Fear of impending disease.
Death is inevitable.
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Physical:
Feeling as if about to go down with a bad cold or flu.
Coryza, fluent.
Itching in eyes, spreading to rest of body.
Many eye problems.
Became short sighted. (Also: short-sightedness cured)
Left sidedness.
Blisters in mouth, on face and lips.
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