weeping from music
Posted: Fri Apr 02, 2004 7:13 pm
Hi all,
Since I have this "symptom" (MIND, weeping, music, from -- Kent) and
since there have been so many possible interpretations of it put forward on the
list by practitioners, I thought I'd post my own experience.
When I am moved to tears in the presence of music, first of all, I'm
really listening to the music, second, it happens not immediately but after a
longer period of listening (i.e., maybe in the third movement or the second act of
the opera) or by hearing something again that suddenly impacts me
differently, more deeply maybe.
I'm not happy. I'm "moved," maybe stunned. I'm also almost immediately
embarassed if I'm with others. So it's not something I want to do or feel I
have specialness because of.
I do see this as a weakness, a draw-back. What if I were lecturing, or
performing, and suddenly couldn't go forward because I was overcome with
emotion where others in the same situation could go forward without this reaction?
How would you react if an opera star suddenly stopped singing because she was
weeping? I think most people would see this as a failure on her part to
overcome whatever the impetus was and perform the job for which she was hired.
Maybe there are many variations of the experience of weeping from music.
But thuja, one of the 8 rems suggested for that rubric in Kent, is me for a
lot of reasons, this being one of them. I'm thinking that this weeping, in
thuja, is tapping into unresolved emotional issues (such as abuse, a thuja issue
and one of my issues). Crying -- seemingly about music, but maybe about
something much more personal. The music is maybe the trigger (a safe trigger?),
not the sole motivation.
Hope this helps with interpretation.
Best,
Margaret in Boston
Since I have this "symptom" (MIND, weeping, music, from -- Kent) and
since there have been so many possible interpretations of it put forward on the
list by practitioners, I thought I'd post my own experience.
When I am moved to tears in the presence of music, first of all, I'm
really listening to the music, second, it happens not immediately but after a
longer period of listening (i.e., maybe in the third movement or the second act of
the opera) or by hearing something again that suddenly impacts me
differently, more deeply maybe.
I'm not happy. I'm "moved," maybe stunned. I'm also almost immediately
embarassed if I'm with others. So it's not something I want to do or feel I
have specialness because of.
I do see this as a weakness, a draw-back. What if I were lecturing, or
performing, and suddenly couldn't go forward because I was overcome with
emotion where others in the same situation could go forward without this reaction?
How would you react if an opera star suddenly stopped singing because she was
weeping? I think most people would see this as a failure on her part to
overcome whatever the impetus was and perform the job for which she was hired.
Maybe there are many variations of the experience of weeping from music.
But thuja, one of the 8 rems suggested for that rubric in Kent, is me for a
lot of reasons, this being one of them. I'm thinking that this weeping, in
thuja, is tapping into unresolved emotional issues (such as abuse, a thuja issue
and one of my issues). Crying -- seemingly about music, but maybe about
something much more personal. The music is maybe the trigger (a safe trigger?),
not the sole motivation.
Hope this helps with interpretation.
Best,
Margaret in Boston