Minutus

Extracted from Homeopathic Links 1998, Winter (by way of Encyclopedia
Homeopathica)
Themes from the proving - Phascolarctos cinereus
I AM: [curative] (Compare Lac humanum)
- My needs are important to me; I did what I wanted to do.
- Felt confident. I'm Okay.
- Felt Okay to just be me in any situation
- Not self-conscious. Self-confidence.
IT'S NOT OK TO BE JUST ME: (I don't fit in).
- I have to do something; make my mark.
- Covering up what one has done wrong.
DETACHED FROM SELF AND OTHERS: (Lac humanum again)
- I let myself have sex with a new guy - I didn't want to - I didn't
feel anything, but did it anyway.
- Shutting off/closing down.
ISOLATION/ALONE:
- Sad and lonely. Felt sad and isolated; felt totally alone.
- No one there for me; no point asking for help; it's too bad, no one
can help.
- I've got no friends. Feel alien to one's own family.
- I don't want anyone to know me.
- No longer frightened to be on my own. I don't need anyone any more.
I don't need sex.
- Desire to be alone, except keeping contact with one's child.
CAN'T TRUST ANYONE/UNSAFE:
- Fear of being trapped/taken hostage; seized/captured.
- I became my son's hostage (dream).
- Fear of physical injury; being killed.
- Can't talk to my supervisor; can't trust her/him.
- Have to hide a secret; make smoke screens.
Being part of a group VERSES being an outsider:
- Even though I felt obliged to take it for the group I felt to follow
my feeling - didn't take it and glad I didn't as old personal stuff came
up.
- Could still be me and be in a group (curative)
- Dreams of groups/communities/families.
- After the first proving there was a conflict in the study group over
whether one student member should be allowed to join in a practitioner
support group we were proposing to start. After this conflict, two
members left the group and as yet have not returned.
Territorial issues:
- Aversion to having other people in my space/home.
- Desire to cut down all non-indigenous trees on my farm.
NO CONSCIENCE OR GUILT:
- A self-righteousness about getting what I want.
- No concern for others feelings. Selfish.
- Hard and cruel; callousness.
Desire to leave the family:
- No concern for family's needs/feelings over this issue.
- I have to leave the family to be me.
Old injuries flare up or become painful.
DESIRE TO SLEEP AND REMAIN IN BED:
- Felt like lying in bed in the morning, cuddling up; wrapped up.
- Hard to get out of bed in the mornings.
DRUGS:
- So depressed desired to take drugs.
- Suddenly took up smoking again; compulsively.
- Wanted to take heroin, the most strongly I have felt this in the
last seven years.
- Confusion as if intoxicated.
- Everything is changed; distortion of time.
- As if I have a hangover; very restless - feels like (drug)
withdrawals.
- Dreams as if a series of bad trips; between each there is a shift
and then another series; these series go on until good and bad become
confused or equal. On half waking I realised that the koala continually
re-intoxicates itself by eating eucalyptus leaves, and we were proving
the effect of their diet as well.
- For one prover it brought up memories from when she was in a mental
institution as a child and was given LSD and other drugs. There was a
strong sense of hopelessness about her situation and a desire for death.

CYCLES:
- Dreams recurring in cycles
- Provers going through the same states in different cycles.
- Cycles of intoxication recurring till all reason is lost.
- Proving effect goes away and comes back again.
ANIMAL THEMES:
- Dreams of animals being butchered; packed into a box.
- Spitting in rage.
- Fear of being captured; injured; killed.
- Pursuing a secret romance with fear of being caught - flirting with
a friend.
- Group issues; wanting/not wanting company of people.
- Power/will issues; standing up for self strongly.
- Colour effects: red, yellow, green, orange and black.
SEXUALITY:
- Breasts:- felt good about my (large) breasts; sensual.
- dreams about men with breasts or being chatted up by a woman with
large breasts who is a truck driver.
Syphilitic:
- No hope; no way out; depressive and gloomy; I'll just go!
- I feel that some of the damage (to my mind and body) will be
irreparable.
- Night aggravates.
- Desire for hard drugs; especially heroin.
- A stubborn remedy: difficult to antidote.
ONE SIGNIFICANT PROVER: (With dream titles/summaries by co-ordinator)
Immediately on taking the remedy, as if on ecstasy - everything looks
yellow; feel giggly. [immediate]
Hanging from a height; embarrassed; urinating; sex; breasts.
Dream: in many parts.
a) I am a gladiator, hanging from a bar 15 - 20 m high for a long time.
I am fully armoured. Scared of falling.
b) Strangling my ex-boyfriend; pushing my thumbs into his throat.
c) Ghost train ride with mum and dad in India. They don't like it; I
feel embarrassed, act stupid and talk loud.
d) Looking after a dog at mum and dad's place - it is lost. I go
outside for a piss and dad is standing in the back doorway naked,
pissing. I say hello and he jumps, pisses on himself, makes a fuss. I
ignore this.
e) Being chatted up by a guy in a bar. I consider having sex with him,
but don't.
f) Being chatted up by a woman with large breasts in a car. She is a
truck driver; we talk about trucks.
[day 1]
Grumpy and angry in the morning on waking.
Happy, soft, affectionate in evening. [day 2]
Bad sleep; I felt I was fighting my boyfriend for space all night.
Grumpy in the morning. [day 3]
A koala spent the day sitting in a small gum tree outside my bedroom;
when I was on the phone to my supervisor it scratched on my door. [day
6]
Too depressed to write my diary; feel like a monster; everyone I love
hates me. Started bleeding yesterday; it hurts. I miss my baby. (Had an
abortion several months ago.) No money, no hope; feel like I just want
the wind to take me away. Ate a whole packet of chocolate biscuits.
[day 9]
Woke very depressed and sore from my period; cancelled my gym session
and stayed in bed till 2 pm. Felt in a state of poverty. [day 10]
Felt incredibly bored today! [day 11]
Nest of flies eggs /completely revolted:
Dream: I had a cut in the sole of my right foot - inside the cut were
two layers of spam - in between the spam was a rectangular 'nest' of
flies eggs. Completely revolted by dream all day! [day 12]
Likes red and yellow.
Dream: My ex-boyfriend was dressed all in red and yellow - a bike
jersey and loose pants - he looked very beautiful. [day 13]
Last night I couldn't sleep. Anxiety about no money; feel everyone
ripped me off. Thinking of all the ways to loose weight and make money
etc. - obsessively. Had to get up and eat and smoke. [day 23]
In connection with people I feel really hurt. [day 24]
I can't stand to be in myself. I can't stand anyone looking at me. I
can't get out of bed. [day 24]
I think I want to be on my own - I can't deal with people, but I'm not
self contained either. I don't like any of my friends. Been brutally
honest: 'how dare you!' [day 26]
No sense of my centre; not centred. I feel on the edge of losing it;
total ungroundedness; just floating or cut adrift. Worse from sugar,
alcohol or tobacco; any drugs; going to town. I am influenced by
whatever comes in. This makes me nervous. I lose faith in myself and
everyone else. In connections with people I feel really hurt. Nothing
feels right; I do not know how I will be when I wake up in the morning.
It's like the fuzzy feeling in one's head after a lot of acid trips -
not down or up, but just wanting to be down. As if something extra in my
brain (i.e. . a drug). [day 28]
I feel I can't live in this place any more. [day 28]
I don't belong; outcast - I should go; feel defeated.
'It felt a really important dream':
At my sister and husband's place - it's Christmas. They wanted me to
stay. I felt I didn't belong and that they were just inviting me to be
nice. I felt an outcast - should go. Felt a lot more comfortable going.
Outside - a big expanse of land on a cliff top. A violent storm comes -
the wind is pushing me back - couldn't walk against it. Tidal waves are
coming over the cliff and up to me. They mostly go into huge crevices
before they get to me. The water wasn't strong on the land where I was.
In the crevices there were massive waves as if coming from subterranean
depths. I couldn't now go - too dangerous. I wanted to try anyway. Then
my sister and her husband came running out crying, thinking I was killed
in the storm. I went back with them and had Christmas dinner with them.
I still didn't want to be there. I felt defeated. [day 28]
I feel like giving up - I'll just go (away).
I feel that some of the damage (from the proving) to my mind and body
will be irreparable.
Want to antidote the proving. [day 28]
On consulting with her supervisor homoeopathic LSD was suggested as a
possible antidote. The prover responded with 'I don't want any drugs in
me.' We decided on using her blood, potentised, to antidote the proving
because of it's similarity with drug toxicity. It was partly successful,
antidoting the worst symptoms.
MIND WHOLE: (I have used this new category as I think it better fits
these type of symptoms. It can be equated to the category J. Sherr uses
in the Hydrogen proving 'Mind sensation')
Immediately on taking the remedy, as if on ecstasy - everything looks
yellow; feel giggly. [11, immediate]
Sense of well-being; really centred; everything is OK [1]
Sense of peace; happy to be just here as opposed to the normal
ambitious state of having to make my mark somewhere [1].
Laid back. Sense of total contentment; really nice feeling; can sit and
be [4].
Sense of what things are good for me; felt 'that is not good for me' or
'that is good for me'; E.g. . felt working double shifts was not good
for me, and when I did it I felt heavy and tired. When I did what was
good for me e.g. eat a certain thing or rest, I felt light and good
[4].
Had a strong feeling not to take the remedy; even though felt obliged
to and that I would be letting the group down. As the time to take it
drew closer the feeling got stronger; in the end I felt to follow my
feeling. It turned out for the best as the next few days lots of old
personal issues come up and I had to work through them, so was glad I
hadn't taken it. [5]
SNUG AND SLEEP:
Desire to be alone and sleep. [8, day 3]
Wanted to be in a snug place. Preferred to be alone. Avers seeing any
friends. [3, day 1]
I think I want to be on my own - I can't deal with people, but I'm not
self contained either. I don't like any of my friends. Been brutally
honest: 'how dare you!'[11, day 26]
Bad sleep; I felt I was fighting my boyfriend for space all night.
Grumpy in the morning. [11, day 3]
NOT CENTRED / UNGROUNDED / DISCONNECTED:
No sense of my centre; not centred. I feel on the edge of losing it;
total ungroundedness; just floating or cut adrift. worse from sugar,
alcohol or tobacco; any drugs; going to town. I am influenced by
whatever comes in. This makes me nervous. I lose faith in myself and
everyone else. In connections with people I feel really hurt. Nothing
feels right; I do not know how I will be when I wake up in the morning.
It's like the fuzzy feeling in one's head after a lot of acid trips -
not down or up, but just wanting to be down. As if something extra in my
brain (i.e. . a drug). [11, day 28]
Last night I couldn't sleep. Anxiety about no money; feel everyone
ripped me off. Thinking of all the ways to loose weight and make money -
obsessively. Had to get up and eat and smoke. [11, day 23]
DRUGS, AS IF DRUGGED: A 'breakdown' - crying and really wanting to use
hard drugs (heroin). I'm such a failure. There is no support for me, no
one I can trust. Felt very fearful of doing it. I couldn't ring my
supervisor. Saw a 'Save the Koala' T-shirt today, that's all very well,
but who'll save me! [9, day 3]
HOPELESSNESS:
I can't stand to be in myself. I can't stand anyone looking at me. I
can't get out of bed. [11, day 24]
LEAVING HOME:
I feel I can't live in this place any more. [11, day 28]
No money, no hope; feel like I just want the wind to take me away. [11,
day 9]
Thinking about moving away from my family so I can be on my own. I'm
allowed to. Arranged to move out for three months, with an option for a
further three (a married woman with two boys).
Dreamt I bought a caravan. [9, day 5]
Told my husband I will be leaving in three months - the teenage kids
don't need me any more. [10, day 4]
No money, no hope; feel like I just want the wind to take me away.[11,
day 9]
I feel like giving up - I'll just go (away). [11, day 28]
DREAMS:
Several of the unusual or characteristic dreams include: (With a
title/summary by the co-ordinator.)
Community; without need to talk; my own space.
1. In a large barn type building with a lot (about 30) of people
sitting around reading. I go off to another barn and watch TV. There
are groups of people here watching different TV's. The whole group is
like a community where I once lived (like an extended family). This is
what they do - all hang out together. A very strong communal sense; all
without speaking.
2. I back my Kombi Van into a triangular parking lot reserved for my
school people. It is a tight fit. I bump into a shelf. Once in, someone
gets out my portable TV (that I have never used before) and sets it up
to watch it with their friends. The space has changed into a kitchen
type room (open, but with benches). [12, night 2]
Spiritual nurturing of my soul; male/female in one.
'The best dream of my life'. In meditation with my Guru (a male) and
other people. (First time in my dreams that I am there and others there
also.) I started to go into shocks and moans - a kind of chorea - from
the spiritual energy in my body. My guru leant over and uncovered his
breast (a female breast) and fed me milk from it. I felt nurtured to my
soul by God. [7, day 4]
Holding on in a big wind.
On a boat sailing - on a raft hanging onto the side with a strong wing
pushing at me. Amazed at my strength to hold on in the big wind. Felt
good. [3]
Not connecting with anyone.
My wife (B), myself and a group of people decide to go out for dinner.
As everyone is going there I decide to go somewhere else without telling
anyone as I can't find B, and feel no need to do so. I later rejoin the
group after dinner. B has gone and I don't connect with anyone. [8, day
1]
Hiding the evidence of my mistake; danger.
Left in charge of a studio - it is my responsibility. I forget to lock
the door. I come back to find some people had moved in and turned it
into a railway station. Seemed unbelievable to me that trains would know
to stop here. Finally asked them to all leave. I expected a
confrontation but there was none. Had to clean up before a scheduled
exhibition. Had to hide every little piece of evidence of my
mistake/failure to look after it [6].
Riding a bike backwards down a hill; couldn't steer properly or brake.
Afraid I would fall off and hurt myself - real fear of the physical
pain. [6, day 2]
Urinating in public; hide the evidence.
I urinate on a tray in a restaurant. Surprised at myself for doing it.
I tried to hide the evidence. Waiter came to collect the tray. I looked
at the ground rather than at him - hoped he wouldn't notice [6, day 4].
Hiding; secret; up high; smoke for camouflage.
Dream series:
1. Counting; adding up figures. Later, worried a secret might be found
out. Hiding from foreigner(s).
2. Bridges and rivers - where is the highest, closest bridge? - wanting
to be up very high.
3. Burning something for camouflage. [9, day 1]
Danger of being killed; over the edge from drugs; stay alert.
I hear groans and thrashings from my flatmates bedroom.
I hear flatmates voice at my door 'I'll seize him'. I think he is mad -
all the drugs he has taken have driven him over the edge. I think he's
going to come in and kill me by hitting me over the head. I struggle
awake and listen for awhile; it seems very real. I felt I must be alert
and ready [6].
Empty; lost in an unknown place; I don't care.
Job of driving a special person. Finished work 2 - 3 am in; the city is
totally empty at this time. I am supposed to meet my husband - he is not
there - lost in an unknown city - I didn't care or worry. [7]
I don't belong; outcast - I should go; feel defeated.
'It felt a really important dream'.
At my sister and husband's place - it's Christmas. They wanted me to
stay. I felt I didn't belong and that they were just inviting me to be
nice. I felt an outcast - should go. Felt a lot more comfortable going.
Outside - a big expanse of land on a cliff top. A violent storm comes -
the wind is pushing me back - couldn't walk against it. Tidal waves are
coming over the cliff and up to me. They mostly go into huge crevices
before they get to me. The water wasn't strong on the land where I was.
In the crevices there were massive waves as if coming from subterranean
depths. I couldn't now go - too dangerous. I wanted to try anyway. Then
my sister and her husband came running out crying, thinking I was killed
in the storm. I went back with them and had Christmas dinner with them.
I still didn't want to be there. I felt defeated. [11, day 28]
Uncomfortable meeting; free falling; toxic orange cloud.
1. My wife (B) and I are talking to two guys about forming a community.
One guy has 150 ha and offers it. There is nowhere to stay the night so
we go to leave. Very rough roads to drive out. They didn't seem together
people. Where will we sleep?
2. My mother and B go sky diving in this deep water tank. My mother
learns how to control and steer her free fall. tell her how to do it.
Sensation of free falling is enjoyable. Half the way down I hang a cord
down to the bottom of the tank and stir up an orange cloud of sediment.
I don't like the look of it - looks toxic; so I stop the free fall and
get out of the tank. I ask the tank owner what he has used in the tank
water - he says a chemical sunlight to purify the water. I explain to
him that it is a sham and is actually toxic. He is dumbfounded and I
leave. [12, night 8]
Nest of flies eggs.
Dream: I had a cut in the sole of my right foot - inside the cut were
two layers of spam - in between the spam was a rectangular 'nest' of
flies eggs. Completely revolted by dream all day! [day 12]
Likes red and yellow.
Dream: My ex-boyfriend was dressed all in red and yellow - a bike
jersey and loose pants - he looked very beautiful. [day 13]
Cyclic.
Have a feeling 'here's that dream again' but can't remember ever having
it before. [7, day 2]
Good food; cyclic.
Looking for good fruit in railway cars. The trains keep going round in
loops every 6 minutes. I would jump on looking for fruit then jump off
or stay on for the whole loop. [13, night 1]
GENERALS:
Left sided symptoms [1,8].
Right sided symptoms [6,7].
Hot flushes and prickly skin at 10.47 p.m., but worse from cold draft;
must shut the window [6].
Hot [7, day 1 immediately].
Had to close window at night; avers breeze [7, day 1].
Had to open door to let in light at night [7, day 1].
I did everything at night; felt cold and tired in day [3].
Feel like I have a hangover - toxic; worse from sun; light; a little
better from dark. [9, day 3]
Desire for fresh air. [4]
Old injuries became painful. [1,3,5,7]
RARE AND PECULIARS:
Giddy - vertex on each side - light headed like too much oxygen [4].
On falling asleep a sensation as if my eyes were watering. (but
weren't) [9, day 1]
Sensation as if dribbling/drooling from the left corner of mouth. [1].
RELATIONSHIPS:
Similar:
Lac humanum: Lack of sense of belonging to society; disconnected from
self and others. Sense of isolation which does not worry them;
independence. Despair and depression.
Hura braziliensis: Despair; hopelessness and much suffering. Floating;
disconnected; alone. Self hatred and loathing. Feels an
outcast/isolated.
androctonus: No guilt in looking after one's own needs. Rage and
violent behaviour. Feels alien and alone/isolated. Animal themes.
The rest of the proving can be obtained for Aus $10 from:
Phillip Robbins, 40 Esmonde St, Lismore 2480. Australia. Ph: wk: 066
215155. Fax: 066 224576.
The remedy should be available (in potencies up to 30 CH) from Brauers
Biotherapiers in South Australia by the time you read this. Brauers toll
free phone number is 008 088108. If you can't get it from them or
require higher potencies then you can contact Phillip Robbins.
Philip Robbins is a practitioner and homoeopathic teacher in Lismore,
Australia. He is principle of the Northern Rivers Homoeopathic College.
Phillip Robbins, Dip. Hom.
40 Esmonde St.
Lismore 2480
Australia
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