Minutus

regards to the group,
please help me,
my history,
around 25 years back (i am 52 years as of now) i started taking
homeopathic medicines after reading materia medicas, the reason was
acidity, i started with nux vomica 30.....after that i used to read
materia medica and it looked as if every medicine is mine, the last
medicine that i took was stannum met 30 which literally made me like
a hysterical mad man.....i used to get frightened very easily with
little noise....i became loner started losing my temper really fast
and started running from doctor to doctor for my recovery...but
nothing helped....i started hiding myself from people then i got
married. i have two sons and very cooperative wife but till date i
never felt like a normal person .....in between i kept taking homoeo
medicines haphhazardly by reading different materia
medica .....gettin from bad to worse.
the medicine this time which made me worse was moschus 30 and i
became bed ridden for almost three months ...lost confidence..dont
want to talk to anybody....lost interest in every thing all the time
my mind is in the body with thinking about what has gone wrong with
me...when i stand i feel i am going to collapse and there is a
blackout for a while..there is crackling in my lower limb joints...i
have a trigger finger in the left hand and i m not comfortable in any
posture..i feel as if not belonging to this universe.........little
contradiction i lose my temper badly and nothing gives me pleasure
evn when i'm taking my meal it looks to be as a very big job...my
most of the med. investigations have shown N.A.D. however some
osteophytes in the lumbar region but that could be because of age
factor..i m always complaing my near and dear ones about my
indiscribable feelings and now i have started feeling helpless and
incurable....and i always want to lie down which also doesnt give me
relief....i have tried allopathic treatment for psychiatry but of no
use.my symptoms are very vague as if my whole body is twisting...my
hips have softened and my spine cannot bear the weight..there is a
choking sensation in the throat and there is total confusion in my
brain. i feel like a crippled person.
i have taken from time to time
calc carb, lyco, puls, sepia 1m, conium, sulphur, aconite, gels, and
many more which i dont even remember.
now any medicine irespective of any system may be it allo, or
whatever it aggravates.
the whole body has become like a stone.
my homoeo physician tells me that i am an idiosyncratic personality.
off late when my family members tell me that you dont have any
problem and when i lose temper and then i start hitting myself.
i dont get refreshimg sleep.and the moment i get up in the morning my
mind is towards my bodily problems and i feel totally lifeless.
during my youth i was taking alcohol and was smoking. alcohol
frequencey was once in fifteen days but i still do take but very
rarely.
kindly help.
am in despair.....and a disgusting feeling.
i will share your replies with my doc .......please help.

Dear ronit,
I am so, so sorry to hear what you're going through!!! I'm sure you
realize that the first thing you have to do is, for some time, NO MORE
REMEDIES!!!!!! No matter how "well indicated" they appear to be.
Until you are steadied out, just put them away, give them away, lock
them up, remove them from temptation. Whenever you do get ready to
begin trying a remedy, make sure that it is (a) under the close and
caring supervision of a competent and well-informed homeopath, and (b)
a *low* potency, probably 6c in water dose, and one dose *only*, to
begin--but even that should (I would think) be many months away. Your
system needs time to "find its own level", normalize as much as it can.

During this time I would suggest that you re-direct your focus toward
learning and using various other methods of health-building--if you
have a good naturapath available that could be a good starting
point--but for their advice on things such as strengthening and
balancing herbs, diet, perhaps water therapy, massage, yoga, gardening,
meditating, spending time in sun and nature, eating an extremely
wholesome, nourishing, easy-to-digest diet (they could help you with
details of how that might look for your particular physiology and
situation). Other than naturapath there are various other
possibilities, depending on who's available in your area.

Does this sound workable to you?
With best wishes,
Shannon
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